My lack of communication (and musical production) can be said, in short, to be on account of yet another transitional phase. I am currently a bit displaced, having no place of my own to work on music, an appropriate continuation of a year that has thus far has been no less than trying. In times of great emotional distress, my music suffers. I wish I could say that I was able to capture the negative energy and turn it into great art, but my mental capacity must be somewhat intact in order to keep it from sounding unsinspired at best, and akin to high school poetry at worst (“The dagger looms above me, I await death,” something like that – any teens out there wishing for a bit of publicity, feel free to submit your work chronicling your agonizing life, as I could use a proper example). I have gone so far recently as to consider giving up music altogether, but to paraphrase a friend, I don’t dare give it up entirely because it is too much a part of me. So in spite of it all the album is coming together (at least in my head and in parts actual composition and recording) as a result not only of an emotionally exhausting 2010, but also the sum of experiences over the last several years. Unfortunately, the earliest I will be able to continue work on Hijacking Your Fiction, and this is hopeful thinking, is November, after my less than triumphant return to the Far East.
Live, or curl up and die on rat-stink kitchen linoleum.
A few changes and notes:
The promised full interview with Culture Shock Lewis will not go up anytime soon, if ever. At this point it has been over a year and a lot has changed. I may refer to it on occasion, however, if it suits me to do so, and I may post portions of the interview or restate certain ideas when appropriate. Although much of what I said remains true, it simply feels dated. If he feels up to it, perhaps it is time for another go?
I may occasionally post commentary on other musicians, albums and genres as a matter of interest.
I may post production notes, technological bits, software impressions, thoughts on music theory and musicology, and other things I experience or read of audial interest.
More complete album news is coming next, as well as future plans for all things AllThisIsMeaningless.
yes, you’re right to never give up. let someone else do that.
Thanks, Staci. I go through this every few years, wondering whether my efforts matter. I think questioning what you do and why you do it is natural, and essential for growth. The best answers never come easy.
oh strange i have been here before. this new clarity is trippy.
The initial shock of a lack of alcohol will do that to you. You get used to it.